I left my home country as I got a chance to do. I lived, worked in foreign countries and I travel as much as I could afford in time and money. From my 20s on I never lived longer than 5 years in one town. I came to the decission not to have kids in my 30s because I wanted live my life my way and without respondsibilities for a family.

Traveling was never a substitute for anything for me. It still gives me independence and let me feel a kind of freedom for sure.

However suddenly the day arrived when my mum started suffering from demencia. I quit my job, moved 600km up to her to live with her and to nurse her. Did this for 4 years - since a year she is living in a special nursing home.

That`s a plus if you will have a son like me. But if you will have a son like my brother who has 3 kids, then you get only once visited a year when it fits his plans. So, kids are are garantee for nothing...

Do I worry what will be in future when I am getting old or when I start suffering from an illness? No, I don`t. I learned and I am used to live on my own. I learned to take/accept help from others if I needed it. In life and in travellife. I am not afraid what will happen to me later - the pandemic showed me in the last 12 months by a number of people I personal knew that life goes and ends in unforeseeable ways.

It will change your perspective if you will have a kid or more. That doesn`t mean in the same time that you cannot travel anymore. Maybe in the first years of your kid you have to change your style of traveling. But you will do automatically and maybe you will buy a motorcycle with a sidecar?

Life means continuous traveling in a direction with an unknown destination in time and place.

Coco Chanel once said: "I do regret nothing in life, except everything I didn`t do". I think that is the point because nobody of us will ever know what had happend when he/she had found a different decision.

In short: You cannot answer yourself the question of the death bed till your are actually lying on it.