Wow! I mean really wow, soooo much info, it's only been a couple of days and this tread has gone mad..
When I mean shes not that sort of girl, I mean mid 30s done very well for her self, and worked very hard, didn't want family, until she met me. likes biking but it's not her life, and would rather I enjoy it, and come back with my storys.
Update, I came out with the way I have been feeling this weekend, and..?
It went very, I explained this was always going to part of my life, and something I need, but I also wanted to build a life with her.
So I'm going to try and live life with a balance.
It has been been amazing the response to my questions, it's made me smile and think very hard, and in some strange way helped. Thanks